Just for today, I will forgive myself. I spent most of my day in bed. For me that isn't living. I just woke up after a four hour nap. I only was up for six hours today. My heart was acting funny and I couldn't seem to stay awake. I tried to do meditation, and I realize now, that I should have done more. I allowed my pain and my dis-ease to rule my life, and that isn''t an option, if I want to be living sober in today.
This looks like they are playing that old game I played as a child, "London Bridge is falling down." I feel like my world is falling down, when I can't get up and do what I need to do each day.
