[MajestyJo]

I very seldom read all the reading on the site other than the ones I post. I also have my own books, and unless I am hurting, I seldom go out looking for something to what I call "save my soul" and I realized how narrow minded I had been and how closed down I had been, and how much I had missed, a message that I was meant to read, passed me by, so hopefully, I got to see it elsewhere. I often see them repeated at my group.

That is the thing, if you shut out the bad, you shut out the good too. It isn't that the reading are bad, it is just that my time is limited, and because of my fatigue, I don't always have the energy to spend the time I want on the boards. Some days I am on three, but when I get carried away, there have been days I have been on the computer for 8 and that is too much. I am only suppose to be on the computer for 3 a day I think, but I tell myself it is 3 hours at one time. I was told that in 2001. It appears as though I don't listen well.

So some days, I am afraid it is "Do what I say, don't do what I am doing." Not very often, but once in a while, especially when I am in pain, to detach, I get out of self, and the sites and the postings, I find healing and helpful to me. When I am in too much pain to sleep, I figure if I can't sleep, I might as well as be doing something worthwhile, especially if I concentrate enough to read a book. The sites have been my lifeline. I am so grateful for them.

Posted in 2012

More true in today because my head can't hold it all. I often go back and rad something and will post on it. I have been lead back to things I have already read, because I need to peruse it again. Either there is more to learn or I didn't get the message, first time around.