Welcome London, so glad you signed in and shared. Sounds like prayer is needed, letting go and letting God. As a friend said to me, "Put it out to the Universe and see what you get back." I need to take the Steps to get out of where I was at. I need to give myself heal. Is there a temporary shelter you can go to, a place where you can get help and support. I knew a friend who signed herself into detox because she didn't feel safe, she wanted to stay sober and couldn't do it on her own. She was going back to school and didn't have the money to get her own place.
Stop looking at your flatmate, especially if he/she is still in their own disease. It has to begin with me and I need to take steps daily to invite my God into my life and accept His good orderly direction into my life. We do the do things and leave the results up to Him. You might be surprised, but on your God's Time, wonderful things happen and often far exceed our expectations.
What do you need to get a job? Do you need to go back to school and get extra training? Volunteer work often leads to full time and looks good on your resume.
Wishing you well on your journey. They say not to make any big changes in your first year, but you do need to keep yourself safe. We are in today, as a result of decisions made. What can we do to make new decisions?
