Love this slogan ever since my sponsor told me the key word was the first one. Live my own life, no longer put it on hold for someone else, no longer looking at the other person to see what they would do, no longer sitting home worrying about what they were doing, but going out and doing for myself.

No longer putting my life on hold, waiting for the other person's wants and desires. So many times I would work myself in to a frazzle and I would be paralyzed and unable to do for myself. All I would do is sit and stew. What is he doing? What is he up to? Was that siren for him? Should I call the hospital? Should I call the police. Went through the same thing with my ex-husband. I am glad that today I have program. It was a hell I don't want to repeat. It helps me to remember when and know that I have a choice, an option to stay in it or get myself out.

How often I know the words but get caught up in the moment and how quickly I can forget. That is why I like sharing here. The words come out and put order to my thoughts and I can see where I am at and if I don't others will point it out! That is good. It is so much easier to see it in others and know what is good for them. How easy it is to forget that this is a program of reflection.

Love "Letting Go and Letting God." My problem is keeping it with Him and not taking it back.

This may be a rerun, but it is a good thought anyway.

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This was like looking into a mirror and had to make sure I didn't write it. It was posted by a friend on another site. Not sure if she wrote it or copied and pasted it from some unknown source.

A long-timer told me that next to resentments, guilt is right up there at the top of the list as to why some people relapse. In my case, it sure can be a mental relapse and thankfully, hasn't been a physical one although last night I had a drinking dream which is a good indicator for me. I have had thoughts of going to a meeting but don't feel safe going at night with my walker. I am going to have to find a solution.

I often feel guilty about not getting out to more meetings.

When it comes to my son and his addiction, I use to feel guilty. It isn't something that was easy to let go of, knowing that he is a product of his environment and he was raised in a dysfunctional family with a grandfather, a mother and a step-father who were all alcoholics. Like me, he didn't learn the best coping skills. I know I did the best I could and in a lot of ways, he was just as much of a focus in my life as my disease. Wanting for him what I never had for myself. Some of it was false guilt, but for the most part it wasn't. Guilt is a feeling like everything else and had to ask for the healing of it.

We forgive for our own health and well being. This affirms the belief, "If you don't recognize it and feel it, you can't let it go."

At a year sober, after believing I thought I knew who God was, I went on a spiritual journey, a spiritual quest, to find out who God was to me and to make Him/Her personal. I am still looking. I feel as though if think I KNOW who God is, then I may stop looking for Him. One of the biggest sources I found was in meetings. I call them God Villages. Every soul in that meeting has a Higher Power, whether they know Him/Her or not. I found Him/Her in nature and as the Native American people say, "Mother Earth and Father Sky." I found Him/her in the different religions of the world. I love Osho and Zen. I looked for the Goddess within. I went back to church twice. Even though I finally left, I still read my Bible on occasion.

The biggest source is finding the quiet, say a prayer, going within and listening for the answer. The source is there. The answers are there even though sometimes I don't know what the question is.

This was written in 2011. It never ceases to amaze me how the story is still the same in today. I still need to find the quiet and do a meditation to listen for my God's Good Orderly Direction in today.

The great "I" am the Ego, the Self, if I don't lose it (attitude), I will lose it (Sobriety that is!)

This could be a duplicate and posted elsewhere. Or I got it here and posted it elsewhere. ;)

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In order to change, I had to change those habits and old behaviors. I had to recognize all those old ways. I was told that I had to make new tapes to replace the new one. I had to recognize that it was me that pushed the play button. That meant I could press stop and rewind and reject.

Alkiespeak - Book - Quote

Take heart; it came to pass, it didn't come to stay.

- Unknown origin.

Whenever I see or am reminded of this slogan, I think, it isn't always about the negative and hurtful things, but the positive and joyful things too.

Life is feeling. All we have is today. It seems sometimes like our trials and tribulations last forever and ever, but they do not. It passes much quicker when I stop and realize that often they are of own making or they are still there because i haven't wanted to let go of them.

Time is fleeting. It never ceases to amaze me how it can just disappear, whether I am having fun or not.

This is a one day at a time program. One day's feelings, thoughts, cares, woes, actions, situations, etc. that is all I have to do, is stay clean and sober, and when I do, life is so much easier because I am better equiped to handle things. Life doesn't get better, I do.

This too shall pass...Like a gallstone. - Anon.

- Alkiespeaks

It is nice when you can see things changing for the better. It was a good feeling to receive affirmation that my choices were for my Higher Good.

Feelings, good or bad, pass on and a new set and a new day moves in.

I really liked this. It reminds me of the Rune, Spiritual Warrior (represents the sun and taking control of your life). Fighting for what you believe in. More importantly, standing for your own truth. I had to find something to believe in. By trusting that Spirit within, I was able to trust myself. That courage, strength, and direction comes from within, through the inner knowingness I receive from my Higher Power or what I sometimes refer to as my Higher Self.

When I don't have the strength to carry on, it is there for the asking. When I have no hope and I am sick and tired of being tired and sick, that Inner Warrior can boost me up and give me a reason for being.

My purpose in today is to carry the message to the alcoholic and addict who still suffer. You don`t have to be new. You just need to connect with someone and let them know that they are no longer alone.

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Life is precious. I have been given a second chance at life and each day is a blessing.

One day's thoughts, actions, joys, sorrows, etc. are all made easier by living in the moment, living in today, and with the help of my HP, I can get through it without having to pick up.

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Keep It Simple:
The slogan, “Keep It Simple” helps to remind us that simple solutions are often the most effective ones. This slogan can help us look at what really is happening rather than what we imagine may happen, and to take a reasonable, step by step approach rather than act out of fear or panic.

So often we base today on our past and forget that it is a new day. We have a God of our understanding directing our path if we make the decision to turn or will and our life into His Care.

It is simple. I can't, my God can. Why not let Him?

Was sharing today how we sabatoge ourselves when things are good or not so good in our life.

For me it was about self worth. I deserve recovery.

Each day I need to get up in the morning, ask for help through out the day, and give thanks at night. As you say an attitude of gratitude will get me through. A grateful alcoholic will never pick up as my sponsor told me many years ago.

In today, I apply Step 10. If something from my past come up, then I need to do Steps 4-9. Many things that happened in today still had roots that were grounded in my past and I had to uproot them and sever them.

Each day is a new beginning. We can change the old ways of thinking and uproot those old tapes, behaviors, and habits, and learn to live anew in today.